Peter Grimes This is my little BRO! I should start by saying I will always see my brother just like this in this picture no matter what happens between us or how old or ugly he get's and I will always be proud of him (as he was) I still look at him as only an older brother does and have tried to understand his point of view but we have both evolved over the years into quite different people and although I can understand most of his nature other parts are quite unusual and I personally believe influenced by others, I look at the picture below and constantly wonder what on earth happened to him, and what made him so bitter.
Part of the following is based on some assumption although I do not like to assume too much and most can be backed up with facts and knowing this person as my younger brother, my brother continually claims to be a family man but his actions conflict with such statements even down to his disregard of his own mother and brother? It is a sort of contradiction in terms that even now I fail to understand, but more on that later.
As a young boy my brother was very shy and was always within himself, there is six years between us and as children I used to take him out on adventures and projects, he attached himself to me as a child because of our problems at home (as such) and I also stopped him from hurting himself a few times from his drug abuse and his temper tantrums, I also protected him and pulled him out of a few scrapes all of which I will go into greater detail later on.
Of course peter will object most strongly to all or any of this, also call me a liar when it suits him and still create lotís of unfounded accusations to try to discredit me in some way, but I simply look at this as my brother justifying his own actions and whomever reads this can decide for themselves and of course there are always two sides to every story.
Anyway; regardless of if he likes it or not this is a true biography on my life from my point of view and Peter Grimes (Brother) was a very big part of it, some of his actions influenced my decisions and any actions I took along the way, some comments here could also be construed as condescending and/or sarcastic in places but it is not meant that way (well maybe a little sarcasm) because as his brother itís my job to annoy him a little.
it has also taken me a bit of time to look at this as a third person because of my personal emotional attachments to my brother Peter Grimes, however it got to a stage where I had to say enough was enough and now a year or so later emotionally detached, I can write about it.
Unfortunately the following events in later years helped to turn any relationship between my brother and me very bitter and in my eyes completely unnecessary and very, very stupid on his behalf! I am writing this as his brother whilst also trying to rise above all the spiteful accusations in the hope that someday he may look at this and realise just how stupid, childish and unnecessary this all was.
Amazingly; he still holds grudges as I found out in quite a few of his emails in recent years from when he was a child of course I am completely guilty of being a child (once) and doing very boyish brotherly things but I put all that away many, many years ago only to find out my brother still has issues with it? In order for completeness I will also go into that a bit more later on.
There is also several issues regarding our mother and the fact that social services had to be called in to protect her so this also serves as a constant record so I do not have to keep repeating myself with my concerns over both my brother and sisters behaviour as human beings, some things i mention in here are very petty i.e. from the perspective of both me mentioning it and others doing it but accumulatively they form the entire picture.